I am SO tired of people telling me: your Dad would want you to do this or that, you need to move on, etc., etc., etc. The latest today was "It's over" in a conversation with a friend who wants me to go to a Christmas function and I said no because I'm not up to it yet. I couldn't believe it!!! It's SO not over. I am so hurt and mad I don't know what to do. I told her she hadn't ever lost a parent so she had no idea what I was living withOUT. Lastnight my husband wanted me to go to his son's parade. I didn't want to. He had the gall to say that I can take people out to see homes (IT'S MY JOB!!!) but I can't go to a parade. Oh my gosh! Then he says he's been through this whole ordeal with me and he hasn't been "not going thru it." Okay, he is usually very supportive and he has been with me but HE DIDN'T LOSE HIS PARENT!!!! He didn't lose a piece of his life and heart and soul. I am sorry but I just needed to vent and now I'm off to my journal but I was wondering if anyone has any good responses to these people who make comments and don't have the slightest idea of what you are going through. I feel I've made good "progress" for only 11 weeks but everyone else thinks I'm just lingering.
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