I just joined this group last night. I am looking forward to talking and sharing with all of you. I am having such a hard time adjusting to everyday life right now. I will sum up what I am doing here then fill in the details later. Last August my brother died of pancreatic cancer. He was 42. My parents had been through hell with him because of alcoholism and DUI's and other health problems. Then in July he got diagnosed and died almost right away. I flew home from California and took care of him along with my sister and parents until the end. The day of the wake my Dad had a stroke. He can't use the entire left side of his body and my Mom has been taking care of him all year. I had the 2nd part of a major surgery August 2nd and got an infection. I talked to my Mom briefly the day before she died because I was in so much pain I could hardly talk. The next day I called and was told she had a heart attack in her sleep and passed away. I had to fly to North Carolina for her wake and funeral and straighten things out for my Dad and I have just returned to California a short while ago. I am better physically from the surgery but mentally I'm a mess. My friend's keep asking me to go out but I don't want to see anyone. My husband is trying his best to help and he is wonderful, but I really just want to be by myself all the time. I don't know how to come out of this dark depression I'm feeling. I guess I just want to know if I will ever want to rejoin life again. I feel like nobody understands me right now and the last thing I can do is make small talk or act upbeat and fun. What do I do? I'm sorry, this post ran a little longer than I thought. I really needed to vent though. Thank you! Jen
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