On Friday sept 18th I received the phonecall that my sister was gone, dead. I live 800 miles away from the rest of my family. My husband and I went into auto mode and took care of everything we had to here at home and hit the road for a 13 hour trip. At 2 oclock that afternoon, my neice, my sisters only daughter called to tell me it was a homicide. I can't begin to explain the feelings and emotions. I was home in Indiana for 8 days. I made it through that week, and now i'm back home. My sister and I were close, soul sisters. I haven't even begun to get angry and ask who and why. I only have this overwhelming sense of loss and sadness. I wanted to go back to work today. I can't. I cry all the time. When I'm not crying I'm constantly thinking about her. and missing her and missing talking to her and missing laughing with her. but I did do something today that I didn't want to do. I called my Doctor. I go in to see her in a few hours. I need help. There, I said it. I NEED HELP. If anyone out there has experienced a similiar situation I'd like to hear from you. I need to know what I'm feeling is normal. I need to know that I will get through it.
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