Almost a year ago I lost both parents to suicide. It was a very emotional time for my sisters and I. My sisters boyfriend got drunk and started a fight the day of the funeral, and all hell broke loose. We never scattered the ashes. My youngest sister is the only one who knows where they wanted to be scattered. Although we have since made up, we are living in 3 different cities right now. I moved into my parents home a few months ago, and they are sitting in the urns in the corner of my house. I know some people find it a comfort to have their family members near, I do not. They would not have wanted to be here. They would want to be somewhere beautiful with nature all around them! I have seen a lot of death recently, and although it sounds irrational, sometimes I feel like I need to get the death out of my house in order for things to get better. I also want to have a place to visit them. I want to just do it, to just give them a final place to rest! We were supposed to all do it together(by we I mean the sisters), but I don't see us all together anytime soon. What should I do to give myself peace of mind without ofending my sisters?
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