Hey everyone...I am just finding this group. My grandma died on August 7th after battling Congestive Heart Failure. I was very close to her and miss her so much. My heart is heavy. I wish I could cry about it more easily. Yesterday I attended a memorial service sponsored by the hospice I volunteer for. I was able to let the tears out then. It was emotional but the service was also comforting. As it is, I already have a hard time opening up and being comfortable crying in front of people, right now I feel like I need to cry in front of others...I need a shoulder to cry on, I'm tired of crying into my own pillow. I can't even visit grandma's grave because she lives nearly 800 miles away. On the other hand, I don't want to go up there yet because it will be too painful without her. She was the last grandparent I had.
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