It has now been almost 33yrs since caz died,and yes i have had loads of councelling yet i still can,t move on,i am so tired of people telling me "time heal,s" bull! it doesn,t heal! i can still you exactly what i did that day and how it all happened how my dad told me to get in the house when i asked how caz was?,i hoped that if i didn,t go indoors then caz would pop up and joke about like she always did,but i knew just by the look on dads face,i can still hear him sobbing in the kitchen,my sister had gone, this time she didn,t come back and still after all these years, i still miss her and would give anything to have just one more moment with her just to tell her "i love you", but no! my mum took that away from me! i love mum but i,m so very angry at her for not giving me a chance to tell my sister goodbye,so you see time hasen,t healed me and i have seen so many shrink,s and councellor,s yet still, i,m still in limbo over the unjust way she was snached away from me,i wish i could take this ache away from my heart.
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