Mum has been gone almost 9wk,s now, but i still feel as if i,m in a tiny room and i can,t get out unless i slap a smile on my mouth,i really can,t believe she left me, i know i,m a man now but what the hell is that supposed to do with me losing my mum! i,m angry frustrated and alone, yes i have dad with me,It feels so strange comin in from work and mum not yelling at me to get a bath before i can have my tea! and "Don,t even think about putting your butt on my funiture or i,ll slap you silly" mum never meant it but she used to laugh alot and take the micky outta me,to a point when she knew i was gonna lose my rag,then she,d say if i can wind you up, what about your mates always be on guard,i really miss her,i try to be chirpy yet inside i feel broken if you can understand what i,m trying to say? mum kept all my baby teeth, and i didn,t realise just how much of the stuff i came home with was still with mum, right down to nursery picture,s, i feel like a different person now,i listen to my nan now instead of ignoring her and just agreeing with her,i wish this terrible pain will ease.
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