This has to be the hardest thing I will ever go thr. On my own. I woke up at five am . On September the 10th 2009 only to find my best friend of 10 years and the love of my life laying beside me not breathing.. Im so hurt and made at all of my husbands Doctors as he had stopped breathing twice before in the past year and a half I found him in time in the past only to find out my husband had sleep apnea and they sent my husband home with out a c-pap machine due to no insurance I was my husbands machine and I didnt wake up this time and I will live with that for the rest of my life I miss you Dustin and I feel so helpless people just done understand I just want to be alone and try to figure out what to do.. I know people mean well only unless you have been there you dont understand That one person you told your most inner secrets to is gone and I cannot help but to feel the most horrible pain deep down
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