You were the best friend that i son could ever have. Through all of my hardships with bipolar and OCD you have never expected anything less than my ability to live a full life. My dad passed away a couple of weeks ago and now it is very awkward. I have more energy that I ever have in my life and really feel like I am being carried by him. At the same time, I wake up just wanting to talk with him, sit with him and share my life with my pops. I am having trouble just saying goodbye but am really trying to do everything I can to live as he would have wanted me to. Some days, though, i just want to sleep and pretend life isnt going to way it actually is. For this, though, I cant check out- i need to be present. i just feel alone.
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