I lost my mom this january from terminal cancer. I am an only child raised by a single mother so I feel that I am grieving on my own. No father or siblings to carry the grief or bond with about the loss. I also fell in love for the first time riht about when my mother got sick. Lately I feel my grief has become so unpredictable. I am so moody, sad and angry and I have been taking it out on my boyfriend. My libido is so low I can\'t tell if it is from the grief or lack of sexual attraction in my boyfriend. I feel there is a wall inbetween me and him because I am not prepared to love someone and lose someone so suddenly again. I feel almost desperate because I see myself sabotaging a perfectly amazing relationship because of my fear. I was wondering if anyone else has gone through a similar situation? How do you love without the fear of loss? How does your loved one accept that your behavior is the grief and not your genuine self? I need answers and most people I know have not had to deal with death and can\'t give them to me.
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