MY MOM WAS DIAGNOSED WITH PANC CA ON JUNE 25TH GIVEN 3WEEKS TO 3 MONTHS TO LIVE I TOOK CARE OF HER TILL SHEW PASSED AUG 10TH,HARDEST THING TO DO IS WATCH SOMEONE YOU LOVE DIE SLOWLY A LITTLE MORE EACH DAY,SHE KEPT ASKING ME DO I HAVE TO DIE??AND THE LAST WORDS DHE SPOKE TO ME WERE I DONT WANT TO DIE.I FEEL AS I HAVE LET HER DOWN SOMEHOW.THEN ON SEPT 8TH I FOUND MY DAD DEAD IN BED I KEPT TELLING HIM TO WAKE UP AND HE WOULDNT...MY BROTHER IN LAW UNEXPECTEDLY DIED ON JULY 20 AT AGE 40 HAD CHEST PAIN WENT TO HOSPITAL AND DIED I GREW UP WITH HIM DIDNT EVEN GET TO SAY GOODBYE,MY SISTER FLWEW HIM TO PA TO BURY HIM AND I WAS TAKING CARE OF MY SICK MOM COULDNT LEAVE HER.HERES THE PROBLEM..I HAVENT BEEN BACK TO WORK SINCE JUNE WHEN I TOOK FAMILY LEAVE TO CARE FOR MY MOM.I WAS PLANNING TO GO BACK ON SEPT 10TH BUT FOUND MY DAD THE WEEKEND BEFORE..I DONT SLEEP WELL ALWAYS CRYING AND HAVING NIGHTMARES I AM ON MEDS AND THERAPY BUT DOESNT SEEM TO HELP MUCH!I KNOW I NEED TO GO BACK TO WORK BUT I WORK AS AN LVN IN A MEDICINE /CANCER UNIT DONT THINK I CAN HANDLE WATCHING PEOPLE SUFFER&DIE ANYMORE..AND I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO I LOVE MY JOB I LOVE CARING FOR PEOPLE BUT I AM SCARED AS HELL TO GO BACK.ANY ADVICE???
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