So today was a bad day. I figured I was just upset because of things at work or just my regular depressive state. I think its starting to feel real and I'm coming out of my state of denial. Its been a month since my Grampa died and it hasn't seemed real at all. I'm starting to realise that I'm really never going to see him again. I think this must be the anger stage cuz I just want to beat the crap out of something. I just want him back. I don't want this to be real!
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