My grandmother raised me from an infant. September 5th of 2016 I sat beside her in a hospital and watched helplessly as she took her last breath. She had kidney failure and congestive heart failure however she died from an infection. I've been taking care of her for the past three years. Without her I feel so lost and angry. Whenever my life was going wrong, she was there to talk me through it. Whenever my heart was breaking, she picked up the pieces. How do I get past this? My kids are lost. My husband is as supportive as he can be but he lost his father nearly five years ago and so he is still grieving on his own. I hate the aching in my chest. I try to look at pictures and I fall apart. Friends tell me "She lived a good long life." I get that. I want her back though. I want to hear her advice. I want to smell her hair when I hug her. I miss her so much and the pain feels stronger as each day goes by.
We have been married 25 years, I have lived through his porn addiction, the countless lies, an affair, almost loosing our business of 23 years because of his depression and then immigrating across the world to start all over again, through all of the above I have stuck by his side! The older he gets the more insecure, difficult, moody, irritable and super sensitive. I find myself constantly...
It has been a long time since on this site but I have hit a rough spot and just need support just very hesitant. I guess baby step is the way to go.