We all go through what you are right now, and the closer you were to the person, the longer it takes to feel o.k. again. I miss my dad a lot, and it has been 31 years. I especially miss him at any special occasion that ccomes along. I go visit him and mom a lot, and whenever I drive past the cemetary but can't stop, I say out loud as I drive by: "hi mom, hi dad, I love you, I miss you."
Take things slow. You know what you are cpapble of and what you are not. So sorry that people at work aren't supportive. Unfortunately, one day, they will be right where you are right now. Then, perhaps they will understand. Rainbowmama

I lost my dad in August as well. I took care of him for 3 years before his passing and he actually lived with me a month before his passing. I miss him everyday. I had lost my sister 3 months before his passing and I feel I stayed strong for him after she had passed. Know I find myself grieving for both of them. I try to create situations where I can talk to them. I do feel there presence, but at times that isn't the same.
My mom passed 4 years ago. I don't think you every stop missing them.

I lost my dad in February of this year and Iknow people say it gets easier with time but for me it just gets harder. I finally had my first dream about him last night i have been so worried that i havent dreamed about him until now. i really dont have a support system. my mom is still alive but she doesnt seem to understand that i am hurting as much as her and i was in shock like her when he died *he died suddenly* and she just wants to ask me questions about the hospital and stuff that i dont even remember. my husband was very supportive for a while but now he doesnt understand that when i have a bad day or just dont feel good and we wind up in a huge fight with him screaming at me and walking out ,,, so i would say he is definitely not much help or support for me. My dad's birthday is veteran's day and i know that day is gonna suck!!! I always either called or visited him every year. i live 4 hours away. i have an older brother but he has pretty much just gone about his life as if nothing happened. he has only visited my mother once in the 8 months since he has been gone and called maybe three times. so i am the one taking care of her 4 hours away and i tried to get her to move closer to me but she says i am just pressuring her. any advice dealing with a parent that refuses to move closer to the only person who is going to take care of her she is 77 years old and doesnt need to be that far away from me so i can take care of her. my brother is also 4 hours away but cant be counted on for anything. i am starting to lose it i think. i am also a motherof a 20 year old in college and a 13 year old and i work outside the home. stress level is through the roof. need advice please

the thing that has been the hardest for me after losing my dad has been the fact that there is no future to look forward to. I had just made peace with him and then he died about 2 weeks later.

Awww honey,let me tell you that it is first of all okay to feel that way!! Its only reasonable to have regrets!! It has been 13 years since I lost my father and I still cant sleep some nights thinking of the fight we had the night he passed!! But I truly beleive that our loved ones are still somehow connected and wish for us true peace and happiness! As much as it hurts the best advice I can give you is to just FEEL the emotions to the fullest,it will hurt like all hell but as long as you face them head on and not run away, I beleive you will find peace..And even if you dont right away,keep positive!! I am here with you and will send a prayer your way!!