ON APRIL 14, 2009 MY LIFE CHANGED FOREVER. mY 17YEAR OLD WAS KILLED SPECIFICALLY SHOT APPROX 6 TIMES ALONG WITH HIS FRIEND WHO WAS SHOT 3 TIMES AND LIVED. i HAVE SO MANY PENT UP EMOTIONS THAT AFFECT EVERYONE CLOSE TO ME. I FEEL LIKE NO ONE CAN REALLY UNDERSTAND WHERE I AM COMING FROM EXCEPT MAYBE A HANDFUL OF PEOPLE I MAY MEET IN MY LIFETIME. I STILL TALK ABOUT WILLIAM HOPING IT MAKES ME FEEL BETTER, BUT IT NEVER DOES BECAUSE AT THE END OF THE DAY HE IS STILL GONE. I HAVE MANY WUESTIONS THAT WILL PROBABLY NEVER BE ANSWERED. FIRGIVENESS FOR THE INDIVIDUALS THAT DID THIS HAS TOTALLY GONE OUT THE WINDOW AFTER LEARNING THERE TRULY IS NO REMORSE ON THEIR PARTS EXCEPT BEING SORRY FOR BEING CAUGHT. YEA I CAN AND WILL DO THINGS IN WILLIAM'S HONOR BUT IT WILL NEVER MAKE HIS DEATH EASIER TO DEAL WITH AND I KNOW IT WILL NEVER BRING HIM BACK, SO RIGHT NOW I FEEL LIKE WHY EVEN BOTHER. I THANK GOD EVERYDAY FOR MY HUSBAND WHO WAS PUT BACK IN MY LIFE AFTER 20 YEARS JUST 4 MONTHS BEFORE WILLIAM'S DEATH, AND I KNOW I HAVE PUT HIM THROUGH HELL THROUGH THIS ROUGH TIME BUT HE HAS WEATHERED THIS STORM WITH ME AND MAYBE THERE IS A REASON WHY HE WAS PUT HERE WITH ME.......I HAVE TWO DAUGHTERS BUT WE DONT HOLD A BOND AS ME AND MY SON DID. HE LOVED ME UNCONDITIONALLY AS I LOVED HIM. HOPEFULLY SOMEONE WILL READ THIS AND UNDERSTAND WHERE I AM COMING FROM.......
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