i was at a church funtion the other day and was asked to give a testamony about a young man that i had met on ds. he was tring to deal with a broken heart a some of us were tring to help him...for he said he was continplating suiside....so after i returned to my seat this woman camw to me and gave me a newspaper clipping that she had written for her son who had passed away march1,1987. i did not know her and niether did she know me,and she did not know that i had lost my oldest son on oct.24,1999this is what the paper said(she wrote) my son my freind i miss youthat no words can explaine.you were my first born,i felt your heartbeat next to my heart.i didn"t know that God was in controlwhile he formed everydelicate part of you from the begining. and all along his hand lead you and held you,you were his not mine,so when you bacame a young man,he let me see thatit was time for me to let go and let God finish his plan on your life, we all have a purpose.Oh how we mothers wish we could be in control,i know that i am not the only mother that has lost a son.we always think we will die before our childeren,but it doesn"t always happen that way. we always share the mwmories that have remained in our hearts and that God recorded there forever. there is something about a mothers memory,she never forgets.the dreams our sons had thier disappoinments, the fears every young man must have as he leaves home and all the funny things they did and thier laughter and the sound of thier voice. becuse they are part of us and they did exist so we have every right. i have accepted your death son! but you have just begun to live, yes son,i have pain sometimes,but i wouldn"t have had it if i hadn"t had the privilege of being your mother.i wouldn"t change one thing. God gave me 23 wonderful years of your life and then took what was his all along. we are Gods childeren and he loves us. and he is in control.i"m proud to have been chosen to be your Mother. i know you are happy!! LOVE MOM
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