I have just lost my biological father July 13th. I have been having a hard time. I was not adopted or anything but have a wonderful stepfather. My real dad was an alcoholic who never seemed to care enough about me to matter. I have been crying for the last 3 weeks and I don't even know why. The memorial service for him is sept. 6th. I am waiting for that day so I can say my final good bye and end this horrible chapter in my life. He also abused me when I was a small child. My sister said we are going to share good memories of him. I haven't any to share. All my memories are bad ones. I am very upset about this and I don't know what to do. I am crying all the time and I don't know if it is because he died or because of all the things that I never got to say to him.
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