I recently got a legal diagnois of bi-polar disorder, back in 2008. In 2006 I was sexually assualted, and had several deaths in my surroundings to deal with, one includeing the loss of the person I consider to be my mother, and the other my biological father, with others as well. As I thought that I was dealing as well as I could, I unintentionally broke the close bond between my 12 year old daughter, and myself due to the stress of depression and manic depression caused by these events. It led to the loss of my 12 year child, becuase the stress passed to her, and she was crying during school. To rid the long term stresses of a prolonged court case, I pled guilty to child neglect, BIG BIG mistake, know anything is my enemy, even if I do the right thing for myself mentally, its not right in the court system, I did all that was requested of me for court, and am desperatley looking for reunionification, but I see that not happening. I have to build my life without her, to keep from a depressive state, but the court wants to drag this out, and in the mean time, I am suppose to be the parent without actually having the chance to do so. Not sure why I need to keep up the visitation, when the child is going to be raised by my mother who disagreees with my style of raising children, and tells my daughter things that are not true about me, If the judge would listen to me, and realize that the event was occuring just after my trama, a one and only event I might have a chance to see my daughter.
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