I lost someone i cared deeply about. He was my godfather, my teacher, and my best friend. While he had his faults, he also had amazing qualities. Throughout his life he helped countless ppl and went through tremendous trouble to do so. I loved him very much. However when he passed almost no one came to his funeral and no one came to his vigil. I know that those around him judged him by his faults, but he was the one that taught me how to help and love others unconditionally. It is harder to deal with his death because i am so angry at those who knew him for not loving him and i am hurt for him that no one came to be at his vigil. I dont know how to get over this. I dont now if this is normal but because he was buried in his native country and his family was not responsive to his death- i feel like i left him there and he is alone and sad.
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