As many of you know I'm a cook in a nursing home. Well I believe with all my heart that the nursing home my mom was in contributed to her death. Well the last couple of weeks I have had a rough time. My Pastor at church told me I need to send my sister a Thinking of You card. To tell her I love her and I forgive her. Which has been hard for me to do. But We got up and went to church Sunday and it was like the Sunday school meesage was just for me. They were talking about love and the grace of God. Then I went to work and we have this section called the Palms its where the people with alzimhers is at. You have to have a code to get out. Well they had changed to code to the door and when I went to asked what it was the nurse told me 621 which shocked me because my moms birthday is June 21st.(6-21). Then usually on Sundays we have singing in our main dinning room. Usually I dont pay much attention because I'm usually busy in the kitchen. Well I was working and this man started singing and I caught one word of the song and realized it was a song that was sung at mommas funeral(where the roses never fade). so I went out to hear it. I told the man that it was sung at my moms funeral and since I didn't get to hear all of it he asked If I would like him to sing it again so he did. Then I went back in the kitchen to finish my work. I got finished a little early. So I went back in the dinning room to listen to the rest of the singing and they were singing "Will the Circle Be Unbroken" another song that was sung at mommas funeral. I took it as momma was tellig me to go on with my life. She is ok because she is in heaven with Jesus. God was telling me that everything is going to be ok not to dwell on the pain remember all the good times because he is there for me. He is taken care of her and will take care of me too. so right at this moment I feel no pain. Yes I still miss her. I always will. I just want to talk to her and hear her voice so bad I cant stand it and hug her and tell her I Love Her. One day I will get to. i sure wish that day was today.
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