My husband and I just lost our baby girl. We found out at my 20 week appointment that she no longer had a heartbeat. I labored for 12 hours and she was born August 21st at 9am. She weighed 4oz and was 6in. We had her cremated and her memorial service was August 17th. Our families have not been supportive and neither have our friends. My husband has just kinda moved on but I can't. I keep seeing our little Grace when I close my eyes and I miss her so much. I feel so cheated. We lost our first baby in January, 9w3d miscarriage. It seems that everyone in my life either leaves me or dies. Either way I get left behind. My anxiety is through the roof and the meds aren't enough. I feel that I can't grieve openly because everyone expects me to just pick up and move on. My husband tells me to cheer up and is trying to make me happy but it just seems that being happy right now is wrong. I've left the hospital twice with empty arms and I'm just at a loss of how to move on.
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