Tuesday night went to bed, everything was fine. woke yesterday morning to find my diabetic Dad had been throwing up since 3am but wouldn't let us call an ambulance. I managed to get a doctor home to him around 1 and he said he was sending Dad to hospital. Two hours later no ambulance, I phoned the ambulance station and they said no-one had booked one for my Dad. I called emergency services and they took him straight away to the cardiac unit fearing he had had a heart attack. The resus people told us it wasnt looking good, then changed and said he was stable. They took him to his ward and would not let us see him saying they were getting him comfortable, that was around 6/6.30pm We never saw my darling Dad again. The doctor who told us said "oh well it's Gods will" - nice. Right now I feel like I can't go on, always a Daddys girl I've lost my mentor and a best friend, Mum is in pieces refusing to sleep. eat or drink because she wants to go with Dad. My husband is amazing as my rock and I could not do anything without him I'm so lucky there. But I just dont know how I am ever going to get over this, I just ran into my local church to cry and this is not me. I know it happens to everyone and you guys have suffered too but right now I feel so lost and angry that my precious Dad has gone. Thank you for listening to me. x
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