Today is six months to the day that Nina died. I want to remember her life, but my mind is drawn back to her death. I cannot talk about this to anyone as it is too awful. Nina's boyfriend phoned to tell me that she had collapsed. I rushed to the hospital with my youngest son and was told very quickly that there was no hope, however, they were taking her up to ICU to make her 'comfortable'. For three days I sat at her bedside, but she never responded. I imprinted her body into my mind as hard as I could. But, and this is the awful thing, a tube ran from her nose and gradually all this blood and brain tissue drained out. I just cannot get it out of my head, so I thought if I wrote it down it might release me from the horror of it. Also, when I opened her eyelids to see her sweet eyes for one last time, her pupils were fully extended and her eyes were 'empty'. My girl was gone. This is not really a discussion and please forgive me for writing it, but I just had to get it out, so that I can move on to remembering her as she was, not as she died.
Posts You May Be Interested In
theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...