One month ago today my boyfriend of 4 yrs committed suicide. It is so hard trying to deal with his loss each day. Not only am I grieving his death but how it happened. I feel the burdens of the world is resting upon my shoulders. I have been left to pick up the pieces of both my life and what was left of his. I keep a daily journal, pray, talk to friends and have recently began counceling. It seems like I take a step forward and the next day 10 steps back. I know he was dealing with many things in his life but what about those left behind? Friends say it's time to move on or you'll get over it. It's not easy - nothing about death is easy but adding this to it and it is far more than I can bare. I certainly welcome your advice and prayers.
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