When I hear a particular song on the radio. It's called The Reason by Hoobastank. My boyfriend dedicated it to me about a year before he passed away. Well the song is talking about apologizing for everything he put me through and he wanted me to know this before he goes (That is the context of the song) I just heard it on the radio. Gary told me he was dying and I never believed him. For those of you that don't know he was an alcoholic. He didn't show the typical signs of liver failure (jaundice) he didn't want to go to the hospital because he had severe paranoia at times (due to previous drug use)so he didn't tell us exactly how sick he was. When he told me he was dying my response was we are all dying.. That haunts me.. I was cold to him at times because I was so affraid of this happening. I don't know how to forgive myself.. I just heard that song and I miss him so much!!!!!
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