I really don't know why, but I keep having the feeling that my husband is angry with me about something. We had a wonderful marriage and we loved each other more than anything. We rarely fought about anything in 34 yrs of marriage. He fought cancer for so long and the last 3 months , we knew we were losing the battle. I guess what's bothering me is the fact that we never discussed anything about his death. I said to him one time that there were a lot of things we hadn't talked about and he said "I know" but didn't say anything else. I don't know whether or not the cancer had spread to his brain or not, but I know he was mildly confused the last 3 or 4 days. Then, at the end, he was hurting so much and I was giving him morphine as fast as I could until we got the pain under control. Now, I feel like maybe he is mad at me and it's tearing me up. I don't know what to do about it and I guess I'll never know. I'm really hurting over this, I think more than anything else. Thanks for listening. Sandy
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