I don't know why I am here, only that I don't know where else to be, I am confused, still in a state of shock and feeling that this will never end, the pain is raw, and and i have three children who miss their dad that I cant stand to see them suffer like I am, I stood at my husbands grave today and at the age of 37 begged him to come back, knowing that he will never come back,what else am I to do in a world where I thought I knew where everything was and was settled to utter devistation, peices scattered all around and nothing as it should be, grief is a series of stages isn't it?....somebody tell me when my tears will stop falling and i will stop expecting him to walk through the door, tell me how to get through christmas and how to pay the bills and keep life moving when all I want to do is stop and rewind. one day at a time works if you know that tommorow will be better, but it dosnt get better you just hide it better. What do you do when your world has gone?