It has been a little over a year since i lost dj, my boyfriend and father of my little girl. i have wondered if there was something wrong with me since the only thing i have felt since is soul searing pain. there where no other feelings or stages that alot of people talk about. it seemed to get better for a little while, then recently it hit me full force again, to make matters worse the anger hit me too. my little girl fell and hurt herself and she started crying for daddy. it broke my heart but i for the first time am so mad at him for leaving us. i think i would rather feel nothing, be one big blob than go on like this. i just dont know what to do with all these emotions anymore.
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