My father died Feb 19, 2006, my mother died Mar 1, 2007, and now my brother died June 2, 2007. We just had his funeral yesterday (June 9, 2007). I don't know if I am just in shock, but I feel numb, but at the same time I am feeling incredibly guilty. My brother and I did not have the greatest relationship, and we weren't on good terms before he passed. Some days I just can't believe that my family is gone. It's like I cannot believe this is my life right now, like it's one big dream. Does anyone else ever feel numb or just have these ups and downs? If I allow myself to really think about my mom, dad, and brother, then I will break down. It's like a rollercoaster of emotions from numbness to utter dispair. Can anyone else relate?
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