I have 4 children. Three of them have chosen to not speak to me because I am not supportive of their addictions. The last one is 23. I have a disease that is causing me to loose lots of time. he is so angry with me that I can not handle it. I have explained to him that I dont want to know things I have done that I can not remember. I have said I am sorry over and over. I have asked him if he just wants me to call him every morning and say I am sorry for something I may have done and he replies no. I am going to stop taking his calls and emails as they are too painful for me to read and bear his anger. I have asked him to get a third party to speak to ad I can not take the anger that is coming at me any more. So I feel as though I have e4 adult children, and they seem dead because they are not in my life. Nobody wil ever know the pain this is all causing me. I am just so very sad.
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