i really miss my mom. with mother's day next sunday it is getting harder and harder to think of her without getting really depressed. i just miss her so much. the 20th of this month will be five month and some people believe that i should beyond the point that i am at right now. you know being able to think of her without crying and without wanting to hurt someone. i am so mad at god from taking her away before she even got to see me finish school get married have kids or any of the stuff that a mother should be there to see her children do. it is not fair. you know my mom always told me that and she was right. there are so many thing that i wish i got to say to her and stuff that i wish that i didn't say to her. i deffiently gave her a run for her money and i wish i had given her an eaiser time then i did. i just want her to know that i love her and miss her so much.
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