okay no one here or anywhere knows this except for a few people but i am adopted my mom gave me up when i was 10 coz she couldn't deal with me anymore. and i have been thinking about her a lot and missing her that is why i am so depressed and why i started cuttign again. my adopted mother kicked me out because she saw me cutting again and i had promised her that i would stop. but the pain is too much i can't tell her that i miss my birth mom because i don't want to hurt her. i just don't know what to do to get past this feeling of abondment and self hate toward myself. i hate that i am cutting again because it kills me to see elizabeth doing the same thing but i can't stop becaquse nothing heals the pain i feel.
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