It is normal. For the first 5 days after my dad died, I was numb... I didn't feel anything (in fact sometimes phsyically. My hands and face would be tingly and numb, but that's from the panic attacks) and I didn't feel any urge to do anything. I had no desires, and wanted to just shut down... but then the floodgates opened and now I'm starting to feel a little more like my older self. So for right now, you will feel nothing, but I promise it won't last. Soon enough, something will spark a little life into you again, and you will begin the healing process. Just hang in there, okay? We're here for you.

~Shelley~

Yes, these feeling are normal. Waves of emotion come and go and change sometimes faster than you can keep up with them. Lean on hubby and put love and time into your children. It won't make this other stuff go away, just offer a temporary distraction from itt. HUggs, rainbowmama

Yes, these feeling are normal. Waves of emotion come and go and change sometimes faster than you can keep up with them. Lean on hubby and put love and time into your children. It won't make this other stuff go away, just offer a temporary distraction from itt. HUggs, rainbowmama

you are feeling very normal for someone who has lost loved one.
don't push yourself, just let each day bring what it will... don't feel alone, there are so many here that know exactly how you are feeling... lean on your family for support..
don't worry, you are very normal

bubbles it is very normal, i went for months not feeling a thing now all of a sudden 17 months after my brother died i cant stop the emotions.

like rashelle said i am starting to feel more like my old self now but the pain will never go away just hides deep inside me.

keep talking and take care. we are all here for you.

Emma.

It has been 15 years since my 15 year old son was accidently shot and killed by a friend. It took me two years and many emotions to finally learn to cope with losing a child. It has been 7 weeks since my 35 year old son died of suicide. I am still in a fog.

Whatever you go through and however you grieve is normal for you. I laugh, I cry, I sing, I dance. Shirley

I think you're feelings are very normal. I don't get panic attacks, but when I lose it, I burst into tears crying like a child, "I miss you, Mama". And it doesn't help. She doesn't answer or come back. And I so need to see her, talk to her, know she's around or hearing me.

No, don't act on negative impulses. But continue to go to grief counseling - particularly in groups. It's there where you can share with and/or listen to others going through the same as you. And it's in those groups where you can open your own heart/grief without reproach, whenever you're ready. Give yourself some time with them. It will surprise you how normal your feelings are.

Bubbles,
You are completely normal. Our minds and spirits can only hold so much pain before it spills over and effects us physically. My Mom passed away nearly 10 months ago and I still have to fight the 'dont wannas' and thoughts of joining her. I, too, dont feel I would ever act on these feelings because I do believe life is precious and I want to spend as much time with my hubby and children as I can, but I do acknowledge the feelings.
Also, you can be depressed and still laugh or feel happy at times. It just means you're trying to deal with the grief, which is good.
Please keep going to the grief counseling. I almost quit mine because it was so hard in the beginning I felt it was making things worse, but I think I'm beginning to see the light at the end of this dark tunnel.
Hang in there hon. God bless you.
Stacie

Yes, these feelings are normal. I was like that for 4 years because I refused to deal with things. Things will take time... just don't bottle them up. You are in my thoughts & prayers.

yes they are normal my dad deid 2 mos i was numb for a month and then the floodgates opened take it one day at a time and hang in there

Im with you more then you can ever know I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers its a tough time for you and I am so sorry. Take care of yourself

Thankyou everyone for your relies. I guess I just have to hang in there. I appreciate everyone who took the time to answer me.