I,m am so mad right now I was in tears about a half hour ago, and I don,t know what to do. My dad died on Fathers day, Im not mad at him, I,m upset he,s not here anymore, I am so mad at lack of support. No one to help with funeral arrangements, my mom was very upset so I took them on myself while my brother took off home and my sister did whatever she did. My mom does no drive I now also look after their 1acre property, lawn cutting, flowers, watering, fertilizing,plus taking my mom shopping and anywhere she needs to be driven to, all that stuff,along with woking parttime and having my own home, husband, kids to look after tot.( they could not afford to pay anyone and their property and flowers are so beautiful and were my Dads pride and joy I cannot help myself but to look after it,) but no one helps not my brother or sister, and my sister is the first to ask for help and to get it and it pi---- my off.My sister is the baby and has always been babied, and I have been running myself ragged and feel really unappreciated and overburdened and couldn,t ever say that to my mom since she is still very much grieving. I don,t think ifI let everything go at my moms either my brother or sister would care it,s just me who can,t watch it.My sister was ticked off at me today because I broke, she complained I missed picking out some weeds out of my moms garden, I told her I only have two hands and am not getting any help doing any of it, along with no help for the funeral either, she claims she offered my mom help on the last day, woopee I had already done everything already, I could have used it a week prior, the day my dad died and she felt she needed to have a walk on the beach with her husband while he still had some time off of work. My brother got to go for a concert while I was helping plan the funeral, that would have been nice if I could have gone. I can,t see things getting better and I don,t know how not to feel so mad. Any answers. Thanks Sandra
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