i'm new to this. my sister died on the 29th of novemeber 07, after suffering 6 years of cancer. Christamas was her favorite time, it's going to be so strange without her. i don't care about it. i cried when i put the lights on the christmas tree, because we used to do it together and i found it hard doing it by myself. a girl at my school is making my life hell. my 'friends' ignore me most of the time and my sister was the only person i could talk to about it all. she was the only person who made me happy when i was sad, and now shes left me for ever, i just want another hug from her, and i want to tell her i love her one more time. she was so so strong through all her treatment and was in control right to the end of her life, and i feel i need to show some courage just like she did, but i'm completly lost without her. i can't explain how i felt watching her die and suffer the way she did, and thats the only comfort i can take from this whole thing, that she's not suffering any more. i don't no what to do anymore. i feel so alone.
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