It\'s been 3 mths and 2 dys since my husband passed away. The whole situation is just to much. I hear the officer like it was yesterday. They told me that he committed suicide. My heart just started hurting. I couldn\'t believe my ears. They wouldn\'t let me view his body, how could they tell me he did that. The next day they said that it was ruled his death undetermined.As an accicentle misfiring of his gun, But the manufacturee said it\'s impossble. The gun has a drop safety. Still to this day I will never know what really happened. I can\'t sleep, eat, and I constantly choke on holding back the tears. I don\'t know which reason I\'m crying for. I\'m mad, angry, hurt, depressed, feel lonely. I hurt for my kids 13,6,4, and 2. What to do
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