My dad died suddenly, unexpectedly, 4 weeks ago. We were super close. Everyone keeps saying to allow myself to "feel" my feelings. That it gets easier with time. I've gone through shock, disbeleif, denial, ANGER (SO MUCH anger) and just complete heartbreak. I returned to work, in a very stressful field 3 weeks ago. Most days I can hold it together, at least in front of people at work. Today I can't. For some reason, today is tearing down so very far. I'm not sure why exactly and I know "everyone" will tell me this is normal and tomorrow is another day. It's not a day I want. I want one more day with him and I know I can never have it.
Yesterday I had the luxury of a lot of time to read posts on here.........for the first time in my life I didn't feel like I was a weirdo......when I introduced myself I told you about what my dd's biological father had been doing to her, that's the worst because it's not me taking the pain....it's my kid....but my previous experiences have been signifcant as well......there isn't much that...
Can't seem to go to sleep right now so I'm up listening to music and posting this. Anybody else up want to message me I'm bored.