I just lost my mother on March 30th and I feel like I am not even here. I have just returned to work and seem to walk around in a fog all the time. I have taken time away from school and am so behind, but I cant seem to sit down and try to catch up because my mind wanders to all my memories of her and her funeral. I cant seem to express any emotions around my friends and I just feel so lost and confused. I have started keeping a journal to my mother, which helps alot with reflecting on my memories with her. I had not seen her in at least a month and feel immense guilt because we lived in the same town and I felt that I had more important things to do. We had not gotten along well in years and I feel so much guilt about all of my arguments with her and i wish I had simply loved her instead. I hope you all appreciate every little conversation or moment spent with your parents, no matter how insignificant they may seem at the time.
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