I had last talked to my mom on the phone on Wednesday and we talked for a few minutes on Thursday she had said she was late to work and wow....I was like she is never late to work..but I didn't grill her on it...went to work on Friday and left her a message to call me (I didn't know she didn't show up to work on Friday) and then Saturday morning her phone was busy and I got up and went to her apartment and the police had to break down the door and that's when they found her...that was 3 years ago and working on the fourth year now and it's tough but
God was doing His work and can't argue with that...have to have faith and pray and live my life with a new new way of living...I hope this helps.

Sweetie you are not responsible for you mom's death. When it's time, it's time and no person and no thing can prevent it. I'm sure you wish you had been with her but you weren't, let it go. There are some things in life which we do not have control over, we have to find a way to accept them. I'm so sorry for the loss of your mom. Take care of yourself, some counseling would likely help you to understand this and accept it. Best of luck.

Almost 25 years ago I visited my grandmother, then went to the hospital to visit my mother. I had told my grandmother that I would stop by her house on the way back from the hospital which was l hr. away. When I caame to her home the nightlite was on so I said she was sleeping .I did not want to wake her up. I called her the next morning, no answer. I put my daughter then 2yrs. old and walked to her house. I went in and found her on the floor. She had suffered a heart attack. I felt guilty for so long. It took a while before I realized that she had a massive heart attack and died instantly. There was nothing I could have done. So nice that you were able to visit with and see her that day. I know a few friends who have not visited their mom for a long time and when she passed away they were devastated that they did not take the time to see her.

That is very traumatic. You may very weel be experiencing PTSD. You couldn't be with her 24/7 could you? You didn't mention whether or not she had been ill before hand.

My condolences to you.
I'm sure people here will be able to offer comfort to you.
Rainbow

I TOO FOUND MY DAD DEAD AND KEEP PLAYING THE WOULD OF SHOULD OF COULD OF GAME.PTSD I THINK I HAVE THAT AS WELL KEEP SEEING HIM THE WAY I FOUND HIMCANT EAT CANT SLEEP CANT STOP CRYING.

Just want to tell you that I am very sorry for the loss of your precious Mom. If you weren't there, then it wasn't meant to be. I was with my Mom when she passed, but my sister didn't make it here in time, and she feels bad too, but I think there was some reason that she was not supposed to be here at that moment, I really do.

I went to wake my son up on the couch on the 4th of July to go to a celebration. He was laying there I thought sleeping. I got closer and saw that he was dead. I don't know how I kept it together long enough to call the police. It is extremely horrible to be the one to find a loved one dead. The guilt I felt for being asleep in my room wondering if I could do something for him was immense. It was an accidental overdose of Oxycodone that some jerks had sold my only child, a 20 year old son. You are not responsible for your Mom's death but I certainly know how you feel. God bless you.

Why do you feel responsible? My mom passed away last year after Hurricane Katrina wiped away our homes. She made it to her 80th B-day. After she lost everything she just gave up the will to live. I miss her so much even though she still comes around, I see her in my house. When I was 5 my favorite aunt killed herself right in front of me. We were sitting right next to each other and she pulled out a gun and blew her brains out. I live with that every day of my life. Just know you are not God and you have no control over death. Stop blaming yourself!!! My thoughts and prayers are with you.