I miss my boyfriend so much!!!! Little by little I am getting reminders he is gone. (Not that I ever forget) but his phone line isn't connected anymore, his email addy isn't working, his car is gone, and his last phone call to me on my caller id is gone too... It's been 19 months and some how the pain doens't go away.. I have learned to live with the pain.. I would give anythign to have him back here. That is selfish though.. His life here was full of a lot of pain. Now he is somewhere peaceful and my life and his parents life has a lot of pain it in. I know we all die and I will be reunited with him when it is my time. I also have writen about all the many wonderful signs I get from him.. but today it just hurts extra !!! Would anyone like to dontate a hug my way? Thanks friends!!!
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