So sorry to hear about your son. I do know where your coming from though. My daughter was 24 at the time Feb 9, 2007 and just fell out in front of her two youngest children. She has three kids in all. The two youngest were with her for three and a half hours before her oldest came in from school to a nightmare. My youngest daughter 18 at the time came in 10 min. after my grandson and has not been mentally right sense. Her youngest was 11 months old at the time. Her daughter just turned 6 Dec 4, and her oldest son just turned 8 Nov 4, and believe me looking at them and seeing the sadness and knowing what they went through makes me feel helpless. If I could just give up I probally would to. But for some reason that is not an option at this time. Just hang in there the best you can, I wish I had more advice for you but I am still new at this myself. My prayers are with you and your family.

Contact Compassionate Friends today! This is the best support group for parents who lost a child. I lost my only child Tony September 09, 2007. I feel your pain

I had some sort of panic attack just a bit ago. I don't know if I can handle this and they also scheduled my cervical disectomy surgery 12/12. Not sure if I should be having surgery.....

The pain will most likely be great for a long, long time. As you said, you have another son who most likely needs his mom, and what about those grandbabies. Your son who passed wouldn't want them to lose grandma too, would he? I know what pain is, I know what it is to not want to go on or wake up for another day. I sit alone and cry a lot, I just keep hoping that tomorrow the sun will shine in my heart again. In the morning, I have to open up my eyes, or I won't know if it is "that day." Sending huggs and prayers. Rainbowmama