Does anyone else have a very hard time opening up? I can't talk to loved ones/close friends at all about what I'm feeling after losing my mom in June. I feel like I need to be strong, that no one would really know what to say, and I just don't feel comfortable overall stating my feelings to people who are close to me. I can open up about everything else! Just not this. No one knows how much I'm hurting inside, no one knows what I'm feeling, simply because I don't feel ok talking about it. I can talk to someone who is not close to me, which is why I finally made an appointment to talk to a counselor on the 1st, and my boyfriend asked why I had an appointment with a counselor, if I was doing ok, I said "yes I'm fine", just like I always say. Is this strange? Shouldn't I be alright talking to my close friends? Isn't that what they're there for? I find it easier to sit and talk in front of a mirror about what I'm feeling than to actually pick up a phone and talk to a friend. What is with me?
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