It's been 10 weeks since I lost Mike. For 8 weeks I cried just about daily and would tear up at seemingly nothing. The last 2 weeks I've only cried once. I feel like crying but the tears just won't come. I want to but I can't force them. I'm not holding anything back; I think about him and miss him every minute of the day. I wear his clothes, I talk to him and write to him, I talk to others about him, I look at his and our pictures. I have a lump in my chest instead of a heart. I'm living under this cloud of sadness all the time. There is no life now - it's just existence. So why won't the tears come?
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