Noone ever thinks it will be there family. This kind of stuff happens to other families on the news. Then I find myself answering the front door with a trooper telling me there has been two fatalities, with those words, I felt no denial, just a crushed stomach, confusion, and screaming and howling to the depths of my soul. The car I had bought just a few monthes earlier, has caught fire, in the engine obstructing his view and causeing Payton to leave the road and hit a tree. He was so handsome,everyone said he should be a male model, but he was humble and wanted to build and remodel houses for the poor see paytonsproject.org The visit to the funeral home was horrible, but I had to give my son a last good bye. I need closer. I returned 4 times. The last time I un-zipped the black bag and I saw his toe, and the toe nail was still there, and Then I started to see his muscles, I knew it was Paytons Body, but Payton was gone. and I smiled and at the same time cried. The minute his heart stopped beating he was safe with the Lord. He is free, I wish I was.
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