I am angry about some of the things my sister did to me. She allowed me to take the blame for misusing my dad and moms estate. She told me to leave my hometown while I was taking care of my mom. At the time I was so angry that I just walked out and told her that she would just have to take over. Then, I found out that she let a caregiver come in and take over my dads matters..She let her have POA, and never took over my dads affairs. Consequently, even though I took the blame for misusing 50,000.00 of my dads money, I have found out it was my brothers and sisters who did it. Now that my father is dying, my sister wants to make it up. I am 2,000 miles away, and am involved with my husbands cancer care, so I cannot go there. I want to tell her what I think. I want to blast the caregiver. I am having a hard time keeping my cool..but am afraid of being alienated further from my family . How do I deal with my anger and frustration in a conservative way. I cannot believe my family would ever take the caregivers word over mine. I am and always have been a nurse with good integrity. I want to tell them all to pretend I am dead, but cant..I have always loved my little sister, and I found out that she has been covering her butt for three years. I was finally allowed to talk with my father, and ask him for forgiveness for my part in all of this, but was never allowed to be with my mom when she was dying. All I feel is hatred for my siblings, and now I am having a hard time going on...It consumes me. I do not want to be a bitter old woman. HOw does a person deal with all of this?
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