I am trying to figure out this site also. My prayers are with you. It is difficult to watch your husband die. Hospice is wonderful though. I found them to be very helpful and understanding. Take care of yourself.
Jan

Sandy,
Incase you can't get into your hugbook, I am going to tell you here what I said there.
I know all too well what you are going through, I know how rough that road is that you are walking down, I am a survivor of such an ordeal, and I have faith that you will be too.
What you are going through is a most terrifying and heart shattering experience, and I am sure that you are questioning everything single thing that you are doing.
During this time you have left with him, curl up next to him and hold him, hold his hand, rub some lotion on him, anything you can do to feel and show your love...he will know and feel it.
Talk to him, even when it seems as though he is not with you...talk, talk, talk.
Tell him EVERYTHING you want him to know, tell him constantly over and over how much you love him.
I am sure you are doing most if not all of this, but here is the hard part, it will be one of the most HARDEST things you will ever do in your life...release him. Let him know that you WILL be alright, you WILL miss him, but it is OK to go to God now, he so needs to hear this, he NEEDS to know that you aren't angry with him for leaving you, tell him it is only temporary, that when he gets there tell him to start building that dream home of yours and his and have it ready for when you come home to him.
I wish I could take away or ease your pain, I wish I could tell you that this won't hurt, but what I can tell you, is that you will make it through.
If and when you are ready, I am here to listen and talk to as well as all these wonderful people on this site.
My heart goes out to you and him.
May God bless you both,
((((((((HUGS)))))))) and prayers, Love, Kat