i saw as my dad deterorate right infront of my eyes. he was given two yrs and lasted 8 months. he had a rare cancer of the sinus that was on the inside of his cheek. he was on radio and were told it was working.it would only prolong his life but we stayd positive. we werent sure wot took his life in the end i think he gav up. he lost his appetite. and went very quite. one day he was ok the nxt he woke up. he didnt speak. kept doing litle rituals got worse as the day went on and went peacefull. im angry for the distance i kept when he got diagnosed. i couldnt watch this big strong man who made me feel safe silp away. i couldnt even hug him. i have this fear of death he understood he wasnt even gonna tell me how serious it was, i just wish i could tell him i love him as i never eva told him. and im sorry
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