How is it possible to let go of all the guilt if when comes down it, it really was your fault? Its like nothing can make me feel any less guilty. I have talked to my counselor, my parents, read books, everything, and not an ounce of guilt has gone away. I have tried to tell myself over and over accidents happen, but its STILL MY FAULT. I can't live with it, i can't live with it, i really can't. I'm so tired. I don't want it to be like this. I don't want to be the reason my brothers gone. No it wasn't my intent, but it doesn't change the fact that it was my mistakes that caused all this. I'm so scared my parents blame me, i don't get how they could even bare to look at me everyday
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