People have said that someone who has lost someone should not even consider dating or seeing anyone else for at least a year. Is this the general rule? Why am I even thinking about it. I feel so horrible that I even consider dating someone else. The more time goes on the more I remember how bad things really were. THe more bad memories I remember. I kept thinking about my loss of the man I loved and was going to spend the rest of my life with, when in reality we were on the very edge of losing what we had due to his addictions anyway. All I keep thinking of is what future I lost, but if things remained the way they were we wouldn\'t have had a future anyway. My brain is filled with so many emotions right now. I think what I\'m greiving the loss of the most is the relationship we had at the beginning, before all the messed up things happened. How can I let that go. How can I allow myself to move on and when should I not feel guilty for it?
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