I am a single mom and try not to let my children see me upset. They didn't know my father as their grandpa because I didn't want them growing up knowing anything about the way I grew up. I got the call two weeks ago today (Sunday) from the hospital saying he wasn't going to make it. I made the trip back to Illinois (I live in Texas) and felt I had to be strong for my 2 younger brothers. I have yet to be able to just sit and cry or grieve. My tears come at the most inopportune times and don't last very long. I just wish I could allow myself to start crying and just cry until I couldn't anymore. I have even tried listening to the cd of the songs we had played at the funeral, but I can still only cry for a few minutes. Is there something wrong with me? What am I doing wrong? Is there anythign I can do to promote the grieving?
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